Kilroy, they do not give a twit about your relationship with God, It is all about do you accept the borg as His channel.
That is the defining question. Your relationship with God is personal, and not subject to speculation, right? After all it is your God. But what they wanna know is, are you going to be a good dub, and tow the line. Are you willing to have two gods? Your god, and the borg?
If your answer was no, then you will surely be disfellowshipped. If it is maybe, that will probobly not be good enough, as you are ''having doubts''. If it is yes, then do what you are told, attend meetings, assemblies, do ''service'', etc.
I hope you are ok with what will happen. I urge you to seek a good support network, and be done with those goofballs!